I’m watching Disney “Subliminal Messages” videos on YouTube
Sometimes I feel sometimes like I don’t have a life. Like..I don’t really have friends to hang out with often. I feel like most of the people I know are because of my boyfriend. If I were to ever be alone, as in without Andrew, who would I have? and who would still talk to me? I feel so conscious about that a lot. All I can say is that this is totally my fault. I like to avoid social situations most of the time because I feel awkward most of the time and the more and more I think about what I should talk to people about..the more I really don’t know what to talk about. I wish I wouldn’t think about it so much, but I do.
Maybe I should just keep myself occupied with more hobbies to keep myself busier. I’ve been spending most days watching seasons of the O.C. and falling asleep super early in the night (10).
P.S. I’m not doubting my relationship at all. I’m just being super self conscious again.
